Hey, I'm and old fart too.....39.....Every One of them are just as nuts as the next one in 4.5yrs.....I know that your upset, but time heals all. Life goes on and you'll find someone else and you will be saying how awsome she is and you can't believe what you were missing and guess what??? She will turn out to be a nut too. Sorry....The only difference is that you just become too tired to care as you get older.......Don't sweat it Bro....you'll be just fine...feeling like a truck hit you is normal but it gets duller and duller everyday. Hang in there.