i feel for ya BG. after my ex and i separated she told me a year later one of our cats had to be put down.i hate cats but not his one.this one was straight kitty kat fo life kinda thug,lol.when she called and told me it was done with i just hung up and cried my ass off.that little nokka was there for me in my deepest darkest hours.more than my ex was.he'd always know when i was illin or just plain crazy off the shit i was takin.had a way to ALWAYS calm this stupid ass cracka down,ya know/like apbt said it WILL get better,just not over night.
don't forget too brother you've got a full plate right now according to some of your posts.i keep prayin for mom and hope whatever the outcome is that she's comfortable and at peace.i wish you more than luck BG,i wish you FAITH...later,the rizzoc