I was diagnosed with this at 20 years old and started use at 17 from pro hormones. At 19 I was on gear. I stopped everything at 22, went into tremendous bouts of depression for three years because of all of the size/strength/mass I had lost and my condition. Eventually I realized that my desire to compete against others onstage would never be fulfilling until I was able to compete with myself and be happy with myself. Now I'm much older, have accepted myself, I'm happy whether I'm on or off (although I prefer to be on, of course) who wouldn't. lol