ever since the birth of my son i have thought about dying more than ever before. I think it is because i have seen everyone in my life shift into the next phase of our lives, i'm a parent instead of the child, my parents are grandparents and i'm down to 1 grandparent left myself. I mostly question what happens next. i know there was a world before me and will go on after me but what happens to me? Heaven? or nothing, just turn into fertiziler for the earth? It kinda freaks me out to think about it.